Sitting here in borders on a hot summer day, slowly sipping my hot chocolate n reading 'Atonement'. its rather interesting but my mind has drifted.. I'm no longer Briony Tallis.
My thoughts have gone where I wish it not to. I can feel the negativity creeping up, seeping through the cracks of the box where I keep the memories and associated feelings of my recent unfortunate happenings (some, if not all will say its fortunate).
How bittersweet it all is. Bitter because of the betrayal, the lies and the hypocrisy. Sweet because better now than later. The good and bad; black and white; happiness and sorrow. The yin and yang of life. For any amount of joy you feel, you will eventually feel the same depth of sorrow. Life has a way of balancing itself. In moments of smiles and laughter, time flies. In moments of sorrow, time stands still. We are so absorbed in our depression that we choose not to believe there'll be smiles again. But eventually.. As always, it balances out.
Someone once told me 'if an infection has festered so badly in one area of your body and you can't heal it, amputate it.' Some things, are meant to be rid of forever.
my thoughts are my own...
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