Insensitivity

Soon.. i will be gone. won't have to deal with insensitive people anymore.

Do you really not know how much I like it? If you ask, I will always say yes but if you know, why would you bring it up to begin with? Why is it so hard to be a bitch? It's so much simpler when you are one. When you dont have to feel obligated or to be nice. To not feel bad if you've voiced your objection. To not have to try to fulfill people's wishes or put up with things that deeply affects you, frustrates you, irritates you. But you do, cause you can't seem to get the honest word out. You battle it in your head and you say what's nice and then you get all frustrated and angry that you are not being understood. Haha. How dysfunctional can you be. But its not like it wasn't made known what the issue was.. Maybe that's why it feels worse? Conflicted.

Memories associated with certain occasions. It haunts you when the date is near. Funny how a particular day can be so happy for some and so horrible for others. Roller coaster ride is what it is and tonight, no one's riding next to me.