Addiction

what is it with addiction?

we often become addicted to something because it makes us feel good. unfortunately with most, it's only temporary. we feel so high for that few seconds that seems like eternity... we become addicted to it and that's all that surrounds our mind. we forget that eventually we'll have to hit the ground and face reality again. why do we do it?

there are some people not worth loving; some people we can't love, not suppose to love. when you meet someone in that category, the only thing to do is to walk away but yet we love. we hang on to the hope that one day things will change. the most embarrassing part of it all is, we know nothing will change yet we throw ourselves all over it despite knowing only the worst can happen.

I've recently read a book... about 3 girl friends from very different background, got placed in the same school because of different circumstances and grew up to be the best of friends. all 3 of them went through relationships where they loved a certain man they shouldn't have.

1. Dead sister's boyfriend. there was too much emotions in that relationship. she loved him deeply and it was never going to work. she walked away and found herself in the arms of a married man. his wife found out. he was never going to leave his wife. no married man will ever leave his wife for a girlfriend. she was left with no choice. she walked.

2. A criminal. Killing mean business man under the orders of a very powerful business man. Fell in love, surrendered to the police but she couldn't forgive him for the things he has done. she walked away.

3. A man who tried to bring down her father's business empire cause he was a corrupt business man. to choose between your father and your man. a father who was never really there cause he was too busy building his empire but provided you with a good life or a man with whom you shared your happiest times with... they left each other. but somewhere towards the end of the book they found each other again....

why does it have to be so difficult? it shouldn't have to be. if you love, you hold on and you work at it. if your heart desires, you'll know how to act...